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- Er, dunno why I wanna say this... It's like I know how pathetic it gets but still... Want to complain, well basically want to express it I guess... But I don't want to tell her, I'm always saying the same kind of useless stuff to her.
- Well just tell me then
- You ?
- Well yeah that's what I'm here for.
- I don't want to talk too much if it's vain and that's just gonna make me look pathetic, I'm afraid no one's gonna understand this shit...
- Well no one's gonna try, so I suppose you get a point here. Now stop fucking around and just tell me.
- Ok... It's just that I saw pictures from my ex, dunno if she's actually living dream of a life or if she's just trying to believe it, but to me looks like she's too much; last time I talked to her she told me pretty much literrally "we're happy, we're having so much fun together". I mean fair enough, I just don't get the point in saying it like that. And now she's displaying pictures of them in Venisia, 10 pictures of kissing each other out of 50, never seen that in any 15 years old gallery before. So it actually looks like she's trying to hard. Even more cause she's actually with someone she rejected because she was better off with me, but finally got back a week after I broke up, but then again why do I care ? In the end it's pretty obvious that I'm jealous, and I don't like it. Never been sure I did the right choice splitting up with her and now that I've lived a shit of a year and that she's displaying so much forced or not happinness, that's not that easy to deal with.
- My my, that was something indeed... Feel better now ?
- Hmm I don't know... Yeah I guess, not much though.
-Well that's all you're getting tonight, punk. That was pretty pathetic, by the way.
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Why not talk

- Hi.
- Hey.
- How are you ?
- Well... Think I've been worse.
- Why is that ?
- I've felt pretty bad recently, but it's getting better now.
- Tell me about it.
- Felt really anxious recently, didn't know why though. I was sweating, shaking, my heart was beating fast and strong, and yet there was nothing going on that could have caused that, I was just doing casual stuff at work. Happened to me a few times before, last was about 6 month ago, same circumstances. I used to think that would be what they call a panic attack.
- Sounds like it indeed; but what happened recently that could have provoked that ?
- I've felt quite bad recently, hopeless, useless, bored, tired, not the same as others, unable to enjoy things, and I've felt like it has been too long it's like this.
- What do you mean, too long ?
- I don't know, I was upset, I wanted that mood to go away at once, I was really upset and didn't want to take any of this any more. Then I asked an important person about it and kind of argued over that.
- How come ?
- Well. When I feel like I need help, I can be harsh on my friends for not being there. It usually starts like this.
- I understand, but how would you like them to help ?
- I don't know, be there, maybe try to know how I'm doing at first, then, you know, just trying understand, trying to find some way to help, do stuff. I don't this and feel like no one would bother giving some of their time for me. It's like I'm not worth the effort.
- I'm sure it's not like this; and they all have issues to deal with at the same time as well.
- Then I'd try to help ! I'm always up for this, it's normal to me, I don't want my friends to feel down, I want to do something, don't want to be left appart either.
- Not everyone wants to be helped, they might want to deal with their problems, they might be embarrassed talking about it with you as well.
- Your job. It's to help people talking to them, basically, isn't it ?
- More listening to them.
- All right. But you have to consider what you doing is useful, that why it's important ! You'd advise people to come and talk their problems out, wouldn't you, not to keep things for themselves ! So why would they have to do this with a stranger they pay for it, and they shouldn't to it with friends ?
- First not everyone need to, they could handle it efficiently on their own. And also I'm a professional, I sort of know how we can work on your problems. I'm not saying you couldn't help your friends, but there are things I know about that can prove useful, that's what my job is about.
- No offence doc, I'm sure you know what you're doing, but for now I don't see what's so special about you doing your job...
- Give it some time.
- You ask me to be optimistic, here.
- I do.
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